Conscious Decisions

I never had strong female friends in my life, until I was 25. And it was an amazing experience. We openly talked about anything and everything. We were from different walks of life, different age groups and different races. I was the youngest. And I still remember loving these women so much, because of all the wisdom shared, the openness and freedom between us.

There was just one thing that used to irk me, that some were much older than me, single, and still iffy about their career. And I used to think, I never want to be like them, at that age.

Never say never, honey.

I’m not gonna get into the relationship aspect; I’m very content in that element. But what scares me is my career.

I took a huge leap and quit my radio career at 26. I had a plan for after radio, but it failed before I even finished serving notice at that station. I still went ahead and left because I couldn’t handle the toxicity. For a while I didn’t know what to do after. And I found myself in marketing somehow.

It’s been 3 years now since I started my own thing, but only been a year since I started to take it serious. And boy oh boy, is it a pain in the ass or what!

I’ve been trying to finish the book “The Subtle Art of Not Giving A F*ck” by Mark Manson since August now, but I always reach a certain point in the book, and have to start over. While restarting (AGAIN) recently, I read this quote (which I feel, I didn’t even read the first three times) and it hit home:

“People want to start their own business. But you don’t end up a successful entrepreneur unless you find a way to appreciate the risk, the uncertainty, the repeated failures, the insane hours devoted to something that may earn absolutely nothing.”

This made me feel like, you know what Sadia, maybe you don’t have all your shit together, but at least you haven’t given up. And I took that from my friend Farhan Qureshi, he told me: “this is one mistake a lot of people make and I’m telling you this… Don’t give up.”

Right now I feel like parts of my life are at a standstill. Nothing has changed there in a while. Maybe it’s because I’m really comfortable with where I’m at right now? But I know part of me is waiting for a storm, to shake it all up and bring some change and challenges into my life. And it’s funny, because, I don’t want a storm, but guys, this is way too calm. And you know the old saying… It’s the calm before the storm.

I posted something on my Instagram the other day and someone replied with: I keep telling myself that, but, when will it pass? 10 years? 20?

And I looked at my life from 5 years ago, and where I’m at now… And wow. A lot has changed. And despite the struggle, I wouldn’t change anything.

Everything had to happen the way it did, for me to be where I’m at today. And today, I can make conscious decisions, for what I want to look back at, 5 years from now.

Are you where you thought you would be 5 years ago?